Gail Helen Bremner

Band-Aids & Broken Glass

Posted on April 27th, 2007 by gail helen.
Categories: Relationships, Personal, Omnia Vanitas, Meta-Fors.

I have always been one of those girls who can’t just rip a band-aid off. Sure, I’ve done it, usually in a gruff, show I’m tough kind of display. But when I’m alone, sitting in my bathroom, I nurse the process, lifting slowly as each molecule of adhesive pulls away, leaving sticky traces of itself or taking part of my skin with it. As in the bathroom, so in life, I think. I’ve never just been able to throw my hands up and walk away from something — be it jobs, relationships, even TV shows. I let things abrade away at me, piece by piece, until something or someone else intervenes. But sometimes, quick equals clean. I love the thought of a sharp edge, an ending, the final page, coming at my own demand. I can’t continue to live this half-life, feeling so leaky all the time, letting everything spin slowly away from my grasp. I have to decide that if I can’t continue to juggle a ball, I should throw it away from me with great force. Maybe it’s time to break some windows…

Share:

0 comments.